The big news in Jen-land is a new job: full time inpatient psych nurse in a high-acuity unit on night shift. NIGHT shift.  For the girl who prefers to get up at 4:30a and go to bed at 9p! As you may have realized by now, I have very seldom been lucky in life.  I […]

It’s 7:47a, and I’m sitting on the couch, patiently waiting for my Mother’s Day breakfast-in-bed—breakfast-in-bed that has morphed into “We’ll get you McDonald’s in the morning, Mom. What do you want?” Of course, both girls are still fast asleep at this point, Chrissy right next to me on the couch because she has yet to […]

I don’t remember the last time I wrote.  I could look it up but that seems like entirely too much effort for the place that I’m currently in.  No idea what I’m about to write.  I guess we find out, together. In late February, we found out that my dad had colon cancer.  Surgery was […]

Welp. I have an ocean of emotions churning around inside of me, and yet, ironically, I’m void. Saw my doc for the second time today since I was in the hospital.  The last time I was there, we talked about how my world was so gray and so we made some med changes.  I also […]

Well.  Here we are.  2019.  I’m still pretty pissed that we don’t have flying cars or any other of the cool stuff from The Jetsons but otherwise this year hasn’t completely sucked. So I went to the doc a few weeks ago and we made some med adjustments.  My doc isn’t technically on my insurance […]

It’s been a day over four weeks since the overdose.  I’ve been struggling mightily and thought that throwing some thoughts on paper might help me to identify what’s going on. I was thinking about this last night:  the overdose, the aftermath, and my current mental state.  I decided that the best way to describe how […]

It’s been two (two!) weeks since I was rushed to the hospital, unconscious and unresponsive, after a suicide attempt. First and foremost, I am okay, relatively speaking.  While mentally I don’t feel fantastic, I feel solidly “okay.”  I’m actually fairly pleased with my emotional state because it lets me know that I am at least […]

CN: Suicide I’m not sure where to begin.  I have written about this and wrestled with this multiple times over the past week.  I’m still very uncertain as to how I should proceed but I do know that steps forward MUST be taken. Writing has always—always—been my way of processing thoughts/feelings/emotions.  I’ve written a lot […]

“Many people wonder how psychological abuse and emotional abuse differ. Are they perhaps the same thing? For me, they are two distinctly different forms of abuse. I believe that people can be emotionally abusive but still have empathy for others. Example? Loved ones who are struggling with addiction will harm others while living out their […]

I honestly have no words.  If you know me, that’s really saying something. When I went into work on Friday, we had a meeting at 9am.  A meeting with all of the team:  nurses, occupational therapists, social workers, counselors, security.  Of course we knew what was coming, but hearing the words still took my breath […]