Well, folks, it’s time for changes! When I originally started writing this blog, I thought it was going to be mostly light and funny and, well, about vodka. However, as the true psych nurse I am, I’ve managed to write an awful lot about feelings and coping skills and mental illness. It only seemed fitting, […]

  I love Dr Seuss. I love his ability to make things, life, seem so simple. It’s an ability that I sorely lack. However, making the answers complicated? Now that is something I can excel at! Since at least middle school I’ve dealt with depression on and off. Back when I was sixteen, I overdosed […]

So it’s been almost two weeks since my tonsillectomy and today was the first day that I actually felt like a functional human being. Eating/swallowing is still really weird, and right now I’m actually in some pain which is unusual, but for the most part, things are slowly progressing back to normal. I apologize for […]

It’s been officially one week since my tonsillectomy and I’m treading dangerously close to losing my mind. In an effort to stave off a nervous breakdown, I’m blogging. This will have one of two possible outcomes: I effectively avoid a meltdown and you are entertained, or I do not avoid a meltdown and you are […]

Been up since 3:30 am and just finally sat down at home at 5:16 pm.  After I slather some Nice ‘n Easy on my hair, scarf some food, and jump in the shower, I should be asleep by 8pm.  Welcome to the world of single mother adulthood! These past two weeks have been brutal.  With […]

As if today being “Super Tuesday” isn’t bad enough, I’m spending it sitting in the Central Lounge of City Hospital while my dad undergoes a 3-4 hour procedure on his heart. Big, long, deep sigh. Where do I begin? It’s been just the Beitkos with my dad since 1985. That’s a long time. And I […]

  Ah, income tax return time! That time of year when some of us (single parents) get back the money we’ve overpaid all year to use for paying ahead on bills …. Or fixing the car and buying tires …. Or finally getting braces for the kiddos. Or, you know, if you’re me, you plan […]

“It doesn’t happen all at once,” said the Skin Horse. “You become. It takes a long time. That’s why it doesn’t happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and […]

I had brie and FiCoCo for lunch today. If you don’t know what FiCoCo is, it’s a delicious concoction of fig and cocoa and, along with brie, is a little slice of heaven on a bagel chip. Lest you judge me too harshly, I did NOT have wine with my cheese. Or, wait, maybe I […]

So yesterday’s blog was light-hearted and fun and a great reprieve for my gray-racked brain. You won’t be so lucky today. It’s very difficult to be a depressed person. It’s also very difficult to love a depressed person. We are not lovable. Not even a little bit lovable. That’s where that unconditional love crap comes […]